♥ Unspoken Wish ♥

It's the last day of 2010!

Counting down to 2011! What's your resolution? 

Exciting year ahead! =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Or rather happy boxing day, judging from the time now.

Had quite a few X'mas parties this year. Tiring but fun! 

This year, X'mas day was spent in another way - at a friend's house. Gaming was the main activity in house where there were mahjong, monopoly deals, uno stacko, taboo, bang! and last but not least, not forgetting Wii (Raving Rabbids)! That was crazy, my right hand/arm is still aching from it. ~>.<~

Exchanging presents is a norm in X'mas. What have I received...? Chocolates but I don't eat (can't blame her though), Keychain which I don't use (no comments on that), Towel (not bad) and SCARFSSSss. Of all that I'd received, I would say I like the scarfs most. Reason being from the sender whom you know... HAHA! 

Wishing that I could spend my X'mas with him but oh well, let's pray that I could do it next year due to the XXX. For now, I shall cherish the presents and the message which was sent at 11pm (24 dec). HAHA. Really appreciate his thoughts and actions for trying to send it at 12 midnight sharp. For him, yes he'd done it, but for me, erm... missed just a little, like an hour earlier? =D

I'm not complaining; it was a BIG improvement compared to the past. =P Just want to say...  adorable, isn't he? =X

Went out to 搵到食 in the afternoon with my family again for my early birthday celebration. Was pouring heavily when we reached. As the inner eating area is fulled, we took the outside tables. Nice table numbers we sat at! Table 15 & 11. =]

Half way through, suddenly I felt something crawling up my right foot. To my HORROR, it was a cockroach! WTH! SOON AFTER THAT, the FLOOR was INFESTED WITH the full generations! We had to lift our legs high up and eat our food. It was a terribly uncomfortable lunch. =[ Family said because it was pouring so heavily that they had to come out of their drain-homes. OMG. Thought that it was already over when we left the store... But when we cross over the road, opened our umbrellas  - sis, bro and his gf shared one umbrella and me and parents shared the other one - my father suddenly shouted cockroaches! Both mum and I kept searching the floor to see nothing and chided him to stop playing tricks on us. Then he pointed at the umbrella and we SAW TWO FREAKING BIG ONES inside! SHIT THEM! IF my dad didnt see them, we WOULD HAVE HAD THEM OVER OUR HEAD! *ahhhhhh* 

What an EXCITING lunch today. Hope everything will turn out fine tonight!

Today was a tiring yet enjoyable day.

Early in the morning woke up just to go to Ikoma for my mock test. Was pretty upset that I made some careless mistakes in the listening section. Listening section, can you believe it? Don't know how I managed to persuade myself to change from the right answer to the wrong one. Mind is so easy to manipulate when it is in a tense situation. *sighs* Anyway, it's a mock test. I SHALL AIM for full mark in the real exam! HAHA. I WISH.

Right after exam, meet up with JY and..... went to the anime fair or festival! HAHA. Queues were everywhere and long. I would say figurines seem like the main merchandises in there. To get into this particular stall, we had to queue for 1 hour 15mins which we DIDN'T buy anything at all. Cool isn't it? Firstly, they are expensive. Secondly, the anime and the products that I wanted just don't match with my wants. After that, we went into this Domo stall... Kim, you'll love this stall to bits. JY took a human size Domo photo. =) Well, we realized they don't only sell Domo stuff, but other animes as well... In the end, got myself a Nurarihyon pillow! HAHA. I'll take it as my birthday present. =P

After the fair, went to meet up with my family where we went to this Korean restaurant in East Coast Road for an advance celebration for my birthday. Nice food - Hotpot, BBQ chicken, Grilled Saba, BBQ pork with lettuce! =) I'm lazy to find out the Korean names for them. If anyone is interested, just ask me. =)

*Wonder are they going to celebrate for me this year since she asked for Monday?* Hmm.. Think I'll just keep my hopes low...

Woh! It seems like I've not been writing in here for months. Oh well, been busy and lots of things had happened during this period.

One of them being those annoying spammers in my chat box that I had to re-install it. Another was the arrival of my ダーリン! How I wish that could happen more often.

Most important matter during my disappearance from here was my *cough*. That matter means a lot to me which also allowed me to realize, in the process, the ones whom I can truly call a good friend. It was a long and tedious process. A big thanks to those who have helped me out! 

Hope it turns out fine! *Will you grant my wish?*

Alright, I shall concentrate on my training now.

Happy Birthday Singapore!!! XD

Alright, how I spent my long weekends + public holiday was that I went to Malacca with my family for a short get-away. Just a two days one night trip. Well, hotel wise, because all other better hotels were all fully booked, we checked into this particular hotel. Don't feel comfortable; don't think I'll go back to that hotel again. HAHA.

Anyway, it was a tiring trip, afterall we drove up there for 4+ hours and another 4+ hours back. I believe we took up more time in travelling than sight-seeing. Went to the night market on our first night and it was splendid! HAHA. I meant we bought quite a few things - food + clothes + miscellaneous stuffs! We ate in some famous satay steamboat for dinner; though it was abit.... unhygienic (you'll know what I meant if you've been there) but the food tasted not that bad.

Did some sight-seeing and shopping mall-shopping the next day and ate chicken rice balls for lunch. After which we hurried back home in case of heavy jam. Surprisingly the customs cleared quite fast today. Was it because of national day? Oh well, Overall, I think it's not bad. At least it's better than JB/Genting for me. I would like to go again since i didn't get to SHOP much at all - only went to ONE night market and 1/10 of the shopping malls! What's more was that we didn't even finish combing that entire mall!

Just went for a H1N1 vaccine jab with my colleagues because I was told that the jab is sponsored by the company. Due to it, I went off 30 mins before my usual off time. HAHA. Cooool. Don't envy me. HEHE.

Yesterday had went to a friend's birthday celebration. It made me forgot all the stress and worries I had, thinking how I wished I didn't have to work today. But time flies, little did I know that it was that late and I should go home to have my beauty sleep. Fun night.

Today after work, finally had the time to check my mails and relax. First mail I saw caught me by surprised yet brightened up my day. Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ Little things are enough to get me contented and happy. Will it continue like that? I hope for that.

Next thing, I had been pestering my mum (well, not exactly pestering) about buying Magnum Gold. Commercial had been airing that for a while YET I don't see it anywhere I go!! How long has it been, 1 month or more? Anyway, I was just telling my colleague this afternoon that I'm still searching for my Magnum Gold. The same night, while drinking my Barley water, suddenly had this instinct that I would see MY Magnum Gold. Open the freezer and to my delight, INDEED IT'S THERE!!! *Allelujah x4*     What a Happy night!

To my disappointment, it didn't taste as good as I had expected it to be. Oh well, tried and done with it.

My instinct never goes wrong, that's what I believe. OF COURSE not till 100%. *DUH*

Just rebonded + cut my hair... the only thing i can comment is that it's a new look. so different from what you used to see me. OMG. How am i going to work on mon with this hairstyle. HAHA Although it's what I had told her to cut, but stillllllllll. 

And it's not cheap. 

Two weeks into my work and going into August month soon. Was then told that I won't be receiving my pay for this month yet. Was kinda surprised and disappointed. How am i going to survive Aug?

Somehow, I just couldn't click with my colleagues. The only one that I talk most is an intern who will be leaving next week. Can I survive then? Was it because they are older than me or there're just no common topics to talk. They are friendly but probably still needs some time before I warm up to them. Seems like a lot of them asked me how do I find this job, whether am I still sending resume, whether will I leave shortly, blah blah blah. Don't know why but it seems to them that I won't stay long in this job. IT'S TRUE. I won't stay long in this job or in fact it depends on my application.. but all that takes a year. If it fails, I'll see how long can I stay working in this company. Nine months are enough to determine my interest, they said... but nine months seems so far away.

Going home are work is a routine or an enjoyment for me. Seriously tired after a day of work with eyes staring at the PC whole day. Think my eyesight's getting worse. AND SHIT! I have GAINED freaking weight  in just two weeks. What the hell man.

All and all is just to say that "Dammit, I have no life and I need to find one".

OH WELL. Started my first job for one week now. What can I say. Not exactly what I had expected. In short, put it bluntly, I won't stay long in this company. Whether I would continue in this industry is another thing. However, I must say that I did learnt a lot from this job that's why I'm staying on before leaving. HAHA... not that I found a new job too when I didn't even do any job hunting now.

Instead, my aim at the moment - JET Programme. Not easy I heard. I REALLY hope I can get into this programme, when right now I've gotten the supports from everyone.

Also, went for my photoshoot today! Hate wearing that bonnet. Cant never look good under a cap/hat/beanie. Somehow I looked  older than my sis. =.= Hope the pictures will look good (two weeks later)!

Great, I have accepted the job. Let's strive for the better future now. LOL.

Programming - seems like a sticky pest to me. Can never run away from it. Don't know it's a bliss that I learnt it or a trouble that I'm attracting it. Although it's a marketing job that I'm doing now, but it's a digital marketing. Digital = Programming. Nah, just kidding. She says she don't expect me to do programming but she's glad that I know how to program and read them cause it's a bit of those when we do our job. How I wish I could tell her that I have already forget all these stuffs and don't wish to read them up again! My books are somewhere lying in the storeroom......

When do I start work? I don't know. 

Tomorrow gonna head down again to sign the offer. Do all the people that going to start their first job have this feeling that I'm feeling now? Probably it might be different if it was the job + company that they hope to get.

What a day today. Firstly had two interviews scheduled on one in the morning and one in the afternoon. In between because I had to have my lunch outside, being it wasting of time to go back home and out again, called my friends who are working around the area. Finally found one friend to lunch with, although her team came along as well. I will agree with her that her colleagues are friendly and very sociable. Good. But I don't think I can get to work there, not in the same team afterall I have applied for marketing role in her company - Citibank. No idea why but it seems alot of my friends are working in Citibank. And then met up with my Uni friends for dinner and had fun times for the night.

So first interview was actually good. Hmm.. I think the HR manager is very friendly and I feel like I click with her  better than my 'supposed' manager cause partly my manager looks fierce. Everything was okay except for the pay wise and the company. Company as in, I don't know it is a MNC or SME and the office is... not what I had expected. Alot of Caucasians as well, jeez I'm always stuck with working them. Their accents are really strong that I afraid I might not be able to catch it well/fast AND interacting with them is a headache, due to my experiencessss. But that's very minor as compared to pay wise. Ah! sidetrack, I saw one VERY CUTE Caucasian guy, don't know is British or Australian. And he was one of those that talked to me while I was waiting there. Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ Sorry Darling~ HEHE. Oh well.......... And I'm being offered for the position in the evening with a bit of rise..................... *sighs* Should I be happy? Perhaps I should work very hard since I can get a pay rise if my performance is good during pay reviews. HAHA... That will be my motivation. LOL.

Second interview. Don't even bother mentioning it. Although it says itself is the largest in Asia, but so many comments and reviews have actually tarnished its reputation saying that they didnt pay their employees for 2 months and some other stuff.. That was the first impression implanted into my mind. To think I was still very excited about this job initally. Even worse, when went to the interview, I was asked to go down to the cafe to wait for another 30mins and when I went up again, another 5 mins they said but in fact was 15mins! I waited a total of 45 mins for a 10 mins interview! Not that I want to complain but, it adds on to its bad image in my mind. Oh well. 

I suddenly don't feel like working. Insecure. Should I start my career path soon or should I wait? Risk and gamble - two main factors now.

*Cheers* I have officially graduated today! But there are mixed feelings here. Happy cause those stressing over projects and exams are over; Sad cause I feel working life is even worse and that I'm leaving my close friends behind.

Anyway, got to school early in the morning to find that I have not much time to dress up! Haha. Well I did of course in the end, thanks to Hid. This close friend of mine has been walking with me since poly days.. Weet! Feels damn good. We finally graduated, Hid! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

Ceremony was as usual, however there was this moment of nervousness when I was about to walk up the stage. Wearing the bonnet and the gown were like wearing beanie and coat in summer. Really hot. Was perspiring so much despite the air-conditioners. And so taking pictures became a dread. But glad that I took with all my friends who attended or were graduating too.

Two surprises came. One, thanks to Eunice and Kim for the card and the lovely pen. Was surprised when Anthony said he had something for me from Eunice. LOL. Two, thanks to Fafa who came over and gave me a bouquet of flower. My mum was still saying before that it will be nicer if I had flowers in my hands but I told them it's okay, too expensive. Then came Fafa later. HAHA.

Thanks for all the gifts and wishes! Sorry if I didn't have much time to accompany you guys! LOVE YOU GUYS! AND SEE YOU SOON I HOPE!

Haha. Had my Japanese placement test today! All was for continuing my language learning outside school. Was so worried about the test since it's been months since I last touched the books. Language, once you didnt practice constantly, you'll forget. How true it is. Luckily I didnt forget entirely since it was only couple of months ago. Chiong-ing the studies this one week.. felt like i'm preparing for an exam again.

Placement test was actually like a short conversation with one of the tutors. Felt relieved but at the same time, felt a bit 'cheated' - afterall I made myself studied the entire mod again. Oh well, anyway I'll be starting my class next week! That's fast! HEHE. On my way to attain my final goal~

Uhh... I need a job. Seriously.

Haha! Finally collected my graduation gown today! Although it was meant to be yesterday, but oh well, I don't see it makes any much differences since the collection is fast. Although I said the collection is fast, THE PAYMENT is DAMN SLOW! I think I've queued up for about an hour plus just to make my payment! Seriously I think they can open up more counters for it since the queue was VERY LONG.

Saying that, I realized how "sweet" I am for that many "bees" A.K.A. sales people to come up and tried to sell stuffs pertaining to my graduation. There were these alumni thing, flowers, donations, photo shoots and certificate medal stuffs. One after another.. *suffocating* Of all these, only photo shoots matter attracted me and my mum of course. Juggling for like one to two hours between two competing studios, finally settled for one of them!

While queueing up for the payment earlier, saw my friends and they asked whether am I buying the bear. "Huh?" was the first reaction I gave. Didn't know they are selling graduation bears/lions. Told them that I'll see first since my mum might complain that I have too many bears at home. So before exiting the hall after settling my photo shoots was the bears/lions section. Before I mentioned anything, what came after that surprised me. My mum asked me whether I prefer a graduation bear or a lion. Saying that it was for my graduation, also hoping that it can replace Wawa. Shocked was my first reaction. Happiness came next. After looking that bear and lion, decided to buy the lion since it's CUTE! and it is a representation of NUS and also I have a bear beside me on my bed. What's cute about the lion/bear is that they are wearing graduation gown with your faculty sashs! Tottemo kawaii deshou?! Uhhh cute stuffs just melt me right away~

Woot~ It's been a while since I last blogged!

Hmm.. What to update when I'm slacking right now.. Have been applying for all I can but still, no calls yet.

Now, I DON'T UNDERSTAND AT ALL. I didn't received ANY calls at all! WHY? I've been wondering. Is it my cover letter or my resume went wrong? Or is it just because I don't have experience? Hey come on, I'm a FRESH GRADUATE! For God's sake, where do I get all these needed experiences when I'm not given a single chance in the first place?!

Just hope I can get one soon, it's going to be July. Having spent one month holiday-ing and one month slacking while hunting job, it's enough for me. Will other people feel so tired of slacking like I do? Probably it's just me?

Enough of that... well I have decided to add a new section to my blog - wishes. It's just to remind me of what I need to do and achieve.

Recently, have been thinking...

Reconsidering.....

Had a girls talk session with Kim, makes me reconsider further......

What if.......

Could it be......

Will it be......

Told me that he was a bit lonely there. So I thought of calling him to accompany him.

Afternoon call is fine, he said.

And the next day, I even messaged him to tell him I'm calling in about 10 mins later.

And when I called, the FIRST QNS he asked was 'What's up?'!!

Like WTH!! It's okay he said that he haven't read my message because there was a friend with him now. Friend visiting him is beyond our control, so it's also okay that we didn't talk because of that. But what pissed me off right out is that first question to me! The way he said was like he DIDN'T know that I was going to call him at all and I need to have something ON in order for me to call him!!!

*Steaming* - *Sucking in air* - *Cooling down*

Hello, I'm scared that you are bored and lonely staying over at that place, so wanted to kill your boredom. But it seems like you are not that lonely or bored after all~

I know I should be kind and understanding since you're a patient at the moment, but what pissed me off has nothing to do with you being a patient.

While still was in my dreams early this morning, I heard three messages called out beside me. Too tired to check it so decided to continue my beauty sleep. (´～`)

Finally had the energy to open them, realized that today is the release of my exam results! And one of them is from NUS since I had asked for a push mail. Anxious yet excited, what alphabets will I see in the message? ＼(>O<)／

I'M SO HAPPY! Couldn't believe my eyes, after all I just woke up you see. I got an A+ for my Japanese language! *YAY* Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ At least now I can tell him about it. Was still planning not to tell him unless I got above B+. HEhE... I'll take it as a farewell gift then. Still I know it was only 2-mods semester for me, but I really studied hard for it! Is that what they call, hard efforts paid off? If I really had studied my 3 years this way, I guess I pretty much has no life left.

Side tracking, thanks Kim for checking in my flight that day! It was quite funny that you thought I'm still over there when you are the one who had checked in my flight for me!!! It's just another evidence of you being blur!!! THANKS ALOT anyway! Saved my 'life' that day.

Wonder how are you now? 八(＾□＾*)

Omg, just cant communicate properly with them. (,,#ﾟДﾟ):∴;'･,;`:ｺﾞﾙｧ!!

I'm at a loss now. HOW exactly should I carve my path?? Who can help me?
He didnt ask me about it; neither do I feel that he will give me some advice or his views on it too.

So who can I turn to?

1. HarborLand [ハーバーランドへ行きたい～] --> I really want to go there!
2. Itsukushima Shrine
3. Toei Movie Land
4. Himeji Kōkoen
5. Rafting (Shikoku)
6. Umeda Joypolis
7. Shizushi Limestone Cave Park
8. Nankinmachi
9. Strawberry Garden

Finally created my first blog! ♥ Yay ♥ I must say, it's not that easy afterall! How long have I spent on creating it? 2 hours? 3 hours? =P Oh well. Of course, Big THANKS to Hidaya for helping me!!! I'll be so lost without you! =D