♥ Unspoken Wish ♥

Yea! My boss told me that my 8 days of leave in December have been approved!

Nippon, here I come (in December)! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

*Note: A long post*

Time passed really very fast. Half of Year 2012 had already gone by. 

And this is exactly how long I've been suffering with regards to my health. First is my skin infection that has been daunting me since the start of the year. I'm currently still under going treatment; hopefully it will recover before December. (No, it MUST recover by all means.) I've already thrown thousands of money to treat it.  ( T o T )

I wish for a miracle.

Second is my gastric/stomach issue. Ever since I came back from India in April for a business trip - the place where I had food poisoning during my five-day stay, I had issues with my digestive system and/or gastric. Nausea, dizzy spell, loss of appetite and sudden feeling of uneasiness were like common matters in my life. Should I be happy that I had lost 3kg due to that? As a matter of fact, no, I totally couldn't function like a normal person. Seen many doctors and eventually consulted a specialist. After the first check-up, he told me to go for endoscopy (considered as day surgery) to check for infection/parasites. Didn't expect myself to go for a surgery as it meant a thousand over dollars need; hopefully I can claim some back from the company. (T.T) Well, at least now I'm feeling better, recovering since I'm on medication to build my gastric functions.

So what exactly happened to me? Doctor said there is no infection inside. He concluded that this is due to the food poisoning incident in India and the constant high stress level I'm getting... 
My current job gives me many different kinds of exposure. I must admit that I've learnt alot from here. However, it is highly stressful as well. I will also like to clarify that being able to go on business trips frequently is not exactly a good thing. Especially if you are going to SEA region + India + Sri Lanka... (Because everyone seems to envy me for this point) You will get sick of travelling somehow...

I'm not sure if I will continue this job (I'll at least stay till this year end!). I feel like studying the language in Japan; afterall it's the best environment to master my language. But... where do I find THOSE kind of money to study there!? It costs a GRENADE just for a year! =.=

Apart from the bad health and stressful decisions to make, I'm so grateful to know that I've many true friends! One true friend - is good; many - is a miracle and bonus! I'm really glad to have them as my friends and helping me without asking for any returns. That's what true friends are for! Thank you for being my friend. ^o^

The day is finally coming. 

I could trust my intuition perfectly.

Although people told me that I could make it or have high chances, I've had always this bad feeling about my ***. Strongly denying this feeling of mine and wanting to believe others', I'd prayed hard for success. 

Waiting for so long and finally gotten a mail this morning... When I saw it in my inbox, I knew what it would say. That's because, successful *** would have gotten a call directly instead of a mail. Reluctantly, I opened the mail and read the content.  It was what I'd expected. 

So advice me on what I should do now. My wish can't be granted. Do I have other routes when this one has broken? No, as of now. In fact, I'm at a loss now. It gets even stronger when I know he's starting work in April. What would be my fate and our destiny?

Furthermore, my friend and I came to a topic on citizenship. What I have found out makes me reconsider the whole situation. That's one thing I have never thought of at the beginning. 

On the other hand, maybe I should not bother so much about these issues at all. Because, I dont know what exactly he is thinking and feeling. Why do I have to do/sacrifice so much when I dont see him doing anything about closing the distance (that's my point of view though)?

Asking about my feeling right now? Think of all the negative emotions you can. Haha.

Last note, intuition - would go to such a length to prove it's right. Noted.

Finally, all of us counted down to the new year...

and here it is.. Year 2011.

HAPPY 2011 to EVERYONE!!! May it be a good year, (especially for me)!

明けましておめでとうございます！

Alot of people had asked me about my plans of counting down. Nope, I had no plans in counting down; didnt want to squeeze with people outside. Just when I thought that I would be counting down with my family at home, my phone rang. Wahahhahahha. First call was around 11:50pm but had to hang up 5 mins later due to bringing his dog back home. Second call was around 11:58pm. HEHE (so coincidentally) Just in time for the counting down (unplanned of course). Hence, theoretically I had counted down to the new year (Singapore timezone) with him~ Hehe

This year is an important one for me - It concerns my future. Hehe... I hope it will really work out for me but I haven't been preparing for it. Thing is, I don't know how to or what to prepare. Been telling myself that I MUST get it no matter what. Thus, put alot of pressure on myself, however become more troubled about being so stress. Someone please advice me!

I am really grateful for all my friends who have helped me up till now. I'm so glad to be able to meet them; though some have tested my patience. =P But overall they are still nice people to know! Hope our friendship continues for years to come.

Being with him in this current situation can be tiring and lonely at times... Always envy couples when walking down the streets. However ne..., it still brings happiness and sparks to my life~! Hahaha.. Have never regretted my choice. If given a chance to choose again, it would still be the same. =) Hope something good comes out of it in the end! 好きだ！o(^^o)(o^^)o わくわく

I don't feel like commenting on my work. Too much problems and troubles. 

Anyway, Happy New Year; Happy 2011!

By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY! ♪Happy(｡´＿●`)ﾉ┌iiii┐ヾ(´○＿`*)Birthday♪

It's the last day of 2010!

Counting down to 2011! What's your resolution? 

Exciting year ahead! =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Or rather happy boxing day, judging from the time now.

Had quite a few X'mas parties this year. Tiring but fun! 

This year, X'mas day was spent in another way - at a friend's house. Gaming was the main activity in house where there were mahjong, monopoly deals, uno stacko, taboo, bang! and last but not least, not forgetting Wii (Raving Rabbids)! That was crazy, my right hand/arm is still aching from it. ~>.<~

Exchanging presents is a norm in X'mas. What have I received...? Chocolates but I don't eat (can't blame her though), Keychain which I don't use (no comments on that), Towel (not bad) and SCARFSSSss. Of all that I'd received, I would say I like the scarfs most. Reason being from the sender whom you know... HAHA! 

Wishing that I could spend my X'mas with him but oh well, let's pray that I could do it next year due to the XXX. For now, I shall cherish the presents and the message which was sent at 11pm (24 dec). HAHA. Really appreciate his thoughts and actions for trying to send it at 12 midnight sharp. For him, yes he'd done it, but for me, erm... missed just a little, like an hour earlier? =D

I'm not complaining; it was a BIG improvement compared to the past. =P Just want to say...  adorable, isn't he? =X